Excluded... outcast... I don't fit in anymore. One person... two people. No room for me. Wait, there is... three, four... but no, sorry, not you. What makes you so special? Why do you get special treatment? It's not my fault... I didn't ask for it. Best... not the best... not even very good. Maybe just good. We'll call you when we need you. Need me for what? Oh yes, that. The thing that makes the world go round. No, not love, the other thing. Idealistic, yeah, right... no place in this world. Idealism, that is. And me. Let me unbelong, maybe that's easier than trying to belong...

Sometimes, I just want to be left alone...

Evanescence was here in Dallas on August 7th for Edgefest. Too bad I had to miss them... I was watching Alice Cooper that night at the Musikfest in Bethlehem, PA. Win some, lose some, I guess. Can't have it all. To some people it may seem like I have it all, good job, chance to travel, etc. But I do miss out on much... friends, family, time, sanity. When school starts in less than 10 days, all hell's gonna break lose. Which might explain my enthusiastic fist-pumping when Alice Cooper performed his 1972 anthem:

Checked the news.... nope, UTD is still intact. I guess it's back to school as usual for me. Sigh....

One thing I discover about links is that they disappear quickly... so if you see something you want (a song, a pic..), grab it as fast as you can, before it evanesces into oblivion....

I had collected a bunch of links and now more than half aren't working. Here's what I have left:

Sweet Raptured Light - An Evanescence Multimedia Site
Some mp3s from ev-stuff
Photo content from Evanescence's main site
More media (music, videos, pics) from evanescence.info
Trading group at Yahoo groups

There's of course much more and better stuff out there. I also have a personal collection. Maybe I'll put them up when I get some time in future. Right now I just want to go into dreamland, ok, maybe not, since I keep dreaming about work nowadays. Just give me a restful sleep for once. A deep deep slumber into nothingness....

I must thank the very talented Elisabeth with Blogfrocks.com for the great design that I'm using for this site. I just don't have the creative juices in me to come up with something like this. Everything's so fitting... the black and the purple, the dreaminess...

This is not quite your regular fan site. While it is inspired by one of my favorite artists Evanescence, and I'll probably be posting news and links about them, it's also a place for me to explore my dark side. Certain dreams. Certain moods. Certain thoughts and feelings.

No masks... maybe...