It has been a while since I felt anything much but stress... (that's why I haven't written here in a while). Which can be good or bad depending on how you look at it. Being constantly stressed out is not good of course. But then when you get a chance to take a break from stress and you start feeling other things, they may not always been good either. An emotional roller coaster, I haven't been on that for a while. Why am I feeling this now? I can't... I can't... this is not right. I feel trapped. I want to get away. But where can I go? Why do I want to leave? Is it somebody hasn't been treating me right? There were times... Or is it someone from somewhere else? But that's impossible. I don't even know. Or maybe I do and can't face it. It'll pass... just like the other times. But others were different. Twcy vs Sypo... or maybe Syco. Stop it. If I stop thinking about it maybe it'll go away. But I can't stop thinking about it. Keep myself busy. Keep myself stressed. Yeah, that'll work. Stress is the remedy. Stress myself out so I can't feel anything else.... I need to get out of this meSS.